Saturday, May 30, 2009

These are the best days

I have another day off today :) I was so excited yesterday when Amy said I could have today off as I sure wasn't expecting it. I think I'm going to do nothing as I havent taken the time to do that since I got here.
I slept for 12 hours....apparently I was more tired then I thought haha. Doing nothing feels so great.
I got to ride yesterday !!! I am so happy. I rode Cash walk, trot, canter and he felt awesome. Can't believe he hasn't been in work for so long as he sure doesn't feel like he's had time off. I really feel a connection with that horse. Maybe it's just because I was the one to bring him in from the field and clean him up into the beautiful creature that he is. I've seen his transformation from dirty feild horse back into the strong, elegant athlete he once was and will continue to be. Amy told me yesterday he and In Style actually have the same sire so they are half brothers....how neat is that! I felt so free on the back of that horse. Again I am right where I need to be and I LOVE what I do.
It was a surreal experience to be on the other side of the arena....riding...with Amy Millar and the other students around me. I am so very thankful for every experience I get.
Each and every day I stop and think to myself where I am and how I got here. It's been an incredible adventure. Anyone can do anything if you just want it bad enough and put your mind to getting there.
My mom had a good point about my blog....she said to just keep it more to my personal feelings and what I do in a day instead of actual little details about my day. I'll just keep it more personal and use it as a way to share my thoughts and feelings with you. Maybe my words will give you hope to reach out and achieve your dreams. Maybe my words can make a difference in your life like so many people , words, quotes and stories have made a difference in mine.
Life is far too short to not live like today is your last day.....so go out and do whatever blows your hair back.....right mom? Thats her new favorite way to live. Live Life on the edge. Good Luck. RIP Smiley...Always loved and Never forgotten....too many friends taken too young. Miss you <3

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Hello!

Hi All,
Haven't written for awhile. Been pretty busy and haven't taken the time.
I've also been thinking....since I have sort of taken a step up I have to be very careful what I "put out there" From the beginning of my blog I have been very careful to not be negative or to give out too much information. I try to stick to events that are directly related to me ect.
I always say.....my boss should be able to read this and have no issues about what I wrote. I always keep that in mind. That might be affecting my writing as I don't always know what to write.
It's good to have everyone back at the farm. I really enjoyed the time on my own but its a whole different world when everyone is back.
Everyday I am thankful for where I am.
At this point I'm still not riding, we haven't had the time to get into it yet. Hoping we will soon though.
I have the day off today....which is why I'm writing at this hour haha. I think I'll go into town again and pick up a few things.
Diva is doing great. She's getting used to the farm and runs around like crazy in the evenings. She's so fit and thin! Looks good though.
Anyway I just wanted to poke in and say I'm still here....just don't know how much input into my blog I'll have now. We'll see.
TTFN

Friday, May 22, 2009

I need better shoes....owwww

Thats it....I need to go buy new shoes....again. Since I've been here I've worn out two pairs of cheapish shoes and already put a hole in my new cheata print gum boots hahahaha.
Next day off I get I'm going on a hunt for really really good work shoes!
Today was a long day getting ready for the horses to come home tomorrow night.
It's 9 pm and other then stopping around 6 pm to go get groceries before the store closed I worked right from 7 am this morning. Tomorrow is going to be even longer as Patrick is riding at 7:30 am so that means I'll feed for 6:30 am, up at 5:45 am. Yeesh. Get all my chores done and then head to the airport at 1 to get our new groom YAY. I'm excited to go for a little road trip....the farthest I've ventures around here is into Perth LOL.
Once we get back she's being thrown right into work....hit the ground running as they say around here....welcome to Millar Brooke HA! So that we have everything ready and perfect for when the horses arrive around 8 pm.
I can't beleive these two weeks went by so fast.....another two weeks and they'll all be gone again to Spruce Meadows and I'll do it all over again.
I should puyt my groceries away and clean my apartment now that the barn is so clean. Thats the story of my life though....(right mom?) the barn has ALWAYS been cleaner and the horses have ALWAYS gotten everything before me :) Wouldn't have it any other day.
TTFN

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

What a beautiful day

Today started off as any other normal day. It was a little cooler this morning and was trying to rain....the weather forcast called for 27 degree weather....I thought HA yeah right. But sure enough this afternoon it cleared up and all of a sudden got hot out. WOW I was amazed. I had a very busy day that flowed smoothly.
The horses were well behaved today which I was so happy to have as yesterday with the wind they all wanted to run and try to give me a heart attack. No running remember.....so I was out there catching everyone as quick as you can say stop it. Silly horses. I caught them all with no problems though and they either went on the walker or we went out to hand graze instead.
I just love In Style, he has the best personality ever and is so inquisitve and cuddly. I am thoroughly enjoying getting to spend so much time with such incredible horses and am blessed to have them a part of my life.
I just adore the weather in Ontario and wished we didn't get so much rain on the Island. I mean it's nice here at least every second day if not every day. Even when it's ugly one day is usually all it lasts. I try to remember how cold it gets here in the winter too but for now it's beautiful. The blossoms are coming out on the trees and the hairy horses outside are starting to look more shed out and sleek. The inside horses are clipped all the time so they never have hair anyway.
I took some pictures today of a horse named Cash that I'm supposed to get to ride soon. He's been turned out in the field for a year and half and has just been brought back in. Today was his 2nd ride since being back and he looks fabulous. I can't wait to get on him. He was apparently quite the Grand Prix horse in his day.....I'm told he's 14 or 16 ish now.
I started preparing the barn for everyone to come home. 10 horses come back on Saturday night and the other 14 come back on Sunday. So from now until then I have 24 stalls to bed and have ready. Keep in mind I'm still just me. But a new girl comes on saturday.....yay! Looking forward to it. I've had the "young lads" as they call them around here to help me with the grunt work though. They ever so nicely stacked the barns mile high with shavings bags and hay so I'm set in that department.
I have a good handle on things around here and am feeling pretty content with it all.
When the weather is this beautiful and the scenery is so amazing I look around and just take it all in everyday. I really do love my job. The hard days, the stress, the long hours, the sore muscles and feet that ache....but there's so many pros to the cons that are all just part of it. It's definatly not a place for everyone but for me.....it's perfect. I am exactly where I need to be right now and am loving my life.
I love quotes.....so here are two of my MANY favs:

Live well, Laugh Often, Love much.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, Forget the ones who dont. And believe everything happens for a reason.
TTFN

Monday, May 18, 2009

Busy Busy Busy

Hi All...I know this week I've been off writing my blog as much. I've been pretty tired by the time I get home so haven't written. I need to sit down and do it as soon as I get home while I'm still buzzing before I just want to sleep haha.
Jacque....I'm still here I promise.
My days are definatly longer here at the farm since I'm alone as I need to stay until I get everything done. Some days that goes according to plan but as soon as I need to do something else like scrub buckets, give hay to the ouside horses, hand walk one of them or something else comes up suddenly it takes alot longer to get things done.
The horses continue to be great. We had a new one arrive yesterday but then he turned around and left again for the horse show today and I traded for two more. So now I have 5 in the barn and 14 outside.
I'm doing ok here by myself though. Feeling pretty confident about running the whole kit and kaboodle :) Besides being alone is only temporary.....
The sunshine is back out and beautiful today. I love Ontario weather!
Oh guess what....I overflowed my toilet today....oops. It was actually nothing I did. The pump got clogged down at the front of the barn which in turn over flowed my toliet upstairs. So I walked into a bit of a mess in my bathroom when I walked in.....water everywhere. Willy helped me figure out what is was and I cleaned it all up.....good as new. Willy is fixing the pump now. Apparently this toilet likes to have a mind of its own and everyone has an issue with it.
I really enjoy being here and running things my way. I mean "The Millar Brooke Way" but I answer to me. It's a nice change from the past few months. Almost feels like running my farm again except way nicer and way more work with horses that have more of a daily schedule that I do. I wish someone told me when to eat, when to excersize, when to sleep.....maybe then I'd be a skinny minny lol.
You will all be so proud of me.....I made an attempt to be social on saturday night. I was talking to a friend I had met online and he talked me into going to a country concert that was playing in town. They were called Ambush and it was a good show. It was so nice to meet some other people I don't work with and enjoy an evening out. I paid for it the next day though as I stayed out past my 10 pm bedtime LOL. I made it through though. I'm only 24 and going out and then working the next day already is getting harder hahahaha. The next night I went to bed pretty much right after work. Got up to do night check and then went back to bed (and you wonder why you haven't heard from me) Today I feel much better and am all caught up on my sleep. I feel like I've been faced with a choice of one or the other.....have a career or be social....I can't have both at the same time. Make being young and being so driven hard at times as the days you want to have a "normal" life you pay for it more then the rest of them.
Now that I've worked from 7 am until 6 o clock....I'm HUNGRY and going to go make myself some food.
Talk to you soon....I promise.
TTFN

Friday, May 15, 2009

Happy May Long weekend

Wow Friday already....I've been slacking on my blog writing. Whats new....hmmm I now have TV and a Phone with unlimited long distance YAY. I emailed out my contact info incase anyone wants to call or mail me :)
Each week I seem to be getting my apartment closer to feeling like home. Now I just need to find energy to go into town and meet some people so I can have a little bit of a life outside of work.
I have almost been on my own, in charge of the farm, for a whole week and things are going great. My other groom left yesterday so today was my first day flying completly solo.
I'm really enjoying my job. Apart from one really stormy ugly day the weather has been beautiful and when I see the sun rise every morning I'm thankful for such a beautiful thing to wake up to.
I just love all these horses and am getting to know In style and Picco really well.
I am learning so many things here for how I want to run my facility. I can't wait for that day!
I went into town yesterday to buy groceries and am pleased I'm starting to learn my way around. "Town" really isn't very big so it shouldnt take me THAT long haha.
I know this is kind of short but I need to make dinner before I have to head down to night check so will try to write again tomorrow.
Have fun May Long campers!!! This is the second year I am missing out on and I am thinking of you all. It's one of my favorite weekends of the whole year.
TTFN!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

PICTURES

I posted some pictures on IH for you all to see :) http://www.islandhorsesforum.com/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=34594

Today was a good day :)

Well today was a great day. Aside from the 4:45 alarm clock that I wanted to throw across the room this morning....I hit snooze for 10 minutes which I NEVER do. The second time the alarm when off I jumped out of bed to get the day kick started so I wouldnt fall back asleep. Had a quick breafast and got ready for work. Headed downstairs for 5:30 and got all the horses fed, groomed, show sheets on and they were on the trailer and pulling out the driveway by 6:30....good for us half hour early! Sandra left with this load so I am all thats left. Well I still have one girl but she will be leaving us on Thursday....the job just didn't work out for her. So the hunt is on again. I was excited to recieve a post from Madison who is going to be coming for a trial on the 23rd so at least I know we have someone in the works. After Thursday I'll be on my own....which for right now is fine as the work load I am more then cabable of handling.
Ian came in this morning before he pulled out to go over the last few things he wanted to touch base on. With that note I held my head high and told myself I can do this.
The sun was shining brightly and by 10 o clock it was already getting warm. The rider came to work with the horses so I got In Style ready for him, then Picco and then Cash. Cash is the gelding who we brought in from the field. I still need to do some serious grooming on him so he looks more like the Grand Prix horse he once was and not a shaggy dirty field horse haha. Seeing him under tack gave me a whole new impression of him. He's a pretty boy. Tomorrow I plan to pull his mane and attack his tail with a bath and a bottle of show sheen....wish me luck!
Got the horses on the walker and turned out. Gave Stevie and Picco lots of loves today, took them out to enjoy some grass in the afternoon. Got a 30 minute luch today....yay for lunch :)
I have two barns fully cleaned out now, the main barn and the student barn and buckets scrubbed so I just have 4 stalls to finish in the clinic barn. We are quite pleased with ourselves for getting it all done right away.
Lots to do in the next two weeks so I've been making lists for things I'd like to do around here.
After work tonight (I was done by 5) I took my camera around to enjoy my surroundings. It's such a beautiful place and tonight I just walked around with Diva and was thankful for where I am. I sat down out in the field by the rock where Big Ben is burried and just took it all in. I need to resize the pictures so I can post them.
Today was a great day :) TTFN

Monday, May 11, 2009

Who needs sleep?

Started at 6:30 am this morning so we could feed horses early and get the first load on the 4 horse by 7:30 am. Got the horses groomed, walked and wrapped to go in the 4 horse. After they pulled out we did the same for the big semi trailer. Loaded 10 horses and away they went. All the clients, Amy and Jonathan left for the show today. Ian stayed behind to ride his 4 horses who are leaving tomorrow.
We are starting at 5:30 tomorrow (ICK) as they are hauling out of here by 7 with the second load.
Today was my first real day in charge of the farm but Ian and one of the other grooms, Sandra, was here so it didn't quite feel like it yet.
We ended up working until about 6:30 tonight by the time we got everything done, packed and ready for the next load tomorrow.
I only have one more crazy morning to get through and then I get to go back to 7am until 4 pm days.....YAY WITH a lunch break even. So stoked for that!
I'm learning quickly the responsibility I am holding now and I will continue to grow into my position, as Amy says it.
I am going to be involved with hiring (and firing) new staff....I won't go into detail on that one however I am going to learn to have a back bone right quick. For all those people I've ever allowed to intimidate or control me.....this is payback. I am now learning to be a real boss. To take no shhhhhh from anyone. I needed this!
Anyone want to come be a show groom? It's not easy and I will scare you before you even get here with the details. However in order to find someone who will really fit the drill that needs to be done as this is not an easy job to do and it's not meant for everyone.
I have my lists galore of routines for Piccobello and In style over the next two weeks. I am nervous but excited to have two Grand Prix horses in my care and 15 horses outside. And LOTS to do around the farm.
I brought Cash (Air of Gold) in from the field today so he can be In Style's turn out buddie. He was owned by Margie Engle at one point and he too was a Grand Prix horse until he got injured. He's been off for the past year and a half to heal so we are bringing him in to be worked again. If he's good I get to ride him :) The rider who is coming will be the first to get on him though.
I'll write more tomorrow.... it will be my first real day in charge with no one else here. Sandra pulls out of here with the second load of horses first thing and I believe Ian is pulling out right behind them as he didn't leave tonight like I thought he was.
Wish me luck! Now I'm going to bed seeing as I need to get up at 4:45 am....OMG Gross! One more day of insanity.....one more day....then I get to sleep......mmmm sleep. Goodnight!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

My body hurts

The past few days have been very long and full of things to do as we get ready for the horse show. I worked from 7 am until 8 pm tonight, non stop.....I am so far past exhausted it`s not even funny. Right from the get go this morning I was tired and a little dizzy so you can only immagine how I feel now. I don`t know how much longer I can keep going as this pace. I need to slow down. With everyone leaving on Monday I`m not sure I`ll be getting a day off until they come back....hmmmm.
I haven`t been riding yet as we have needed all hands on deck to get packed and horses clipped ect. We only have tomorrow left to get everything together then they leave Monday morning. Amy said she`ll watch me ride when they get back from the show so we can hopefully put my program together before they head off to spruce meadows.
She did mention I might be able to ride on or two this time but we`ll see what happens.
It`s so stormy here tonight. I was clipping Monte when all of a sudden the power went out and there was thunder and lightening outside. It rained like I have never seen rain before...and I`m from Vancouver Island! Within like 30 seconds the main yard was flooded and sheets of water were falling from the sky. The power did come back on so I was able to finish clipping thank goodness haha. Ìt`s still really windy and I can hear it wistling past my windows.
I think there was alot more I was going to write about but my brain cannot even function and my hands don`t want to keep typing. I`m going to grab some food, have a shower and head to bed again. Wake up and then do it all again tomorrow.....whew!
TTFN

Thursday, May 7, 2009

What a day!

Today started off as any normal crazy day around here.....feed clinic barn, feed and water outside horses, clean clinic barn, put Mercy on the walker by 8 am so she can be ready to be jumped at 9 am.
Finished stalls and waters, got Mercy ready for Patrick.....it was too rainy and wet to jump on grass today so at least we didn't need to bother with corks. Helped in the student barn, got Simply ready for 10 am, put Mercy away. Helped get Eurostar ready for Alex and off to his lesson. Put Simply away, cleaned some tack, went to help clean tack in the clinic barn. Got Monte ready for Alex and put Eurostar away.....this is what we do all day lol.
Fed hay at 11:30 and swept. Got outside fields ready for the other youngsters to be turned out. Turned the young ones out so now I have 15 horses outside. As the days go on everyone is telling me everything I need to know while they are gone. Everyone leaves on Monday for the show in Palgrave. I will be staying home with In style and Piccobello as well as all the outside horses and two other staff. It will feel like a vacation for me after these past few weeks. I am going to spend the time getting the barns in tip top shape, learning where everything is, doing some field matenience ect. I think it'll be a good two weeks. When they return they will be here for two weeks and then off to Spruce Meadows for 5 weeks.
I'm happy the way it has worked out so this first two weeks feels like a good introduction to it all.
Once they get back from Palgrave (and things hopefully settle for a few days) Amy want to see me lunge and ride so we can put a program together. There has been so many things happening and things on the agenga lately to worry about starting something new. We needed all hands on deck to get ready for this nect string of shows and that I completly understand....even though I'm very eager to start my program with the young horses.
The vet was here today and went over giving needles with me. He wanted to make sure I know how to give intramuscular and intervenus needles so that if the need arises while I'm here alone I'm cabable. Of course I would never make a decision like that, on one of these horses, without talking to the vet or the Millars by phone FIRST.....just wanted to make that clear. But I feel better knowing how to do it, what to give for what ect.
I have lists going through my mind every minute about what horse is doing what, who's on this routine ect. I have alot to study. I told them I wants lists!
Nikki and I went out with the vet to give vaccinations to tall the outside horses. It went quite smoothly so we were pleased.
The Bell satellite guy came today so I have tv now YAY. And guess what day it is.....THURSDAY....which is GREYS ANATOMY....so of course we had a grey's night over here. Told everyone to come and eat junk. It was good times!
The phone guy was supposed to come to but he never showed OR phoned my cell phone like he was supposed to. When I called they company they said he was here twice....but funny how the satelite guy found me no problem and the phone guy couldnt. There's people here everywhere....arg im still bitter. Now I had to reschedule for NEXT week and I keep racking up my cell bill with all the customer service calls. I'm really afraid my cell bill is going to be around $400 or something YIKES.
Anyway today was busy....like everyday...but today I started at 7 am and was still working at 8:30, went and did night check and finally quit in time for my tv show. LOOOOOONG day.
I need to go to bed now. Oh and Diva got to run around the farm all afternoon off leash so she`s tuckered out beside me haha she was in her glory with all her friends.
Two new girls also arrived tonight and will be starting work tomorrow.....yay my new staff. Always another adventure waits just around the corner.
Also on another note....(sorry I keep jumping topics here) last night I read an article I believe Christi on IH posted...it was all about life`s choice. And if happiness is a choice....choose it. You can wake up each day and choose to be in a good or bad mood. I am a strong believer of staying on the posotive side to life and I feel it makes a difference in not only my day but in everyone else. So go to bed tonight, reflect on the day and choose to wake up happy and enjoy tomorrow. Sweet dreams all TTFN

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I finally feel "home"

Well I was about to go to bed as it's 11 pm but I thought about the people I told that I'd be writing in my blog tonight and felt bad with the thought of them sitting at their computers clicking "refresh" until it appears. HAHA ok ok maybe I'm not THAT exciting but a girl can wish right hehehe.
I had the most wonderful day off today which I so badly needed. It started by convincing my body to sleep in past 6 o clock. I woke up at 6, 7:30, 8 and 9 but managed to stay in bed until about 10. Got up and wandered around the house, let Diva out to pee. Got my cleaned up and ready to go into town. Walked through the barn first and took a couple pictures since I don't normally have time to. One of the girls mentioned there was a meeting at 11 so I figured I better stick around for that. Sat down with Ian, Amy and Jonathan and went over a few topics we needed to cover to get ready for the next round of horse shows. I am meeting with Amy tomorrow as well to go over more of what I'll be doing while everyone else is gone. I hope I get the answers to my questions I've been going over.
Tried to put Diva in the apartment but with the people meeting below she wanted to make a fuss....so to not make a scene I brought her with me. I drove to the next town over, Smith Falls about 25 minutes away to go to good ol Walmart :) I spent WAY too much money today but I really needed to make the apartment feel more like home and more liveable. So I bought a 27 inch TV, a phone, an alarm clock, dish clothes, a really cute dog bed for Diva and a food dish, some toys, plates and cups for me, cheeta print gum boots for mucking stalls (he he he) I thought they were cute. And a few other little odds and sodds. I came home and dropped it all off. Got some people to help me wrangler it all up into the apartment. Brad took me over to get a table for the TV and I might go back to the shed tomorrow to get the matching coffee table since I know it'll fit. Then I went into Perth and went to a few little stores....already mentioned the things I bought......
The girls needed the car after work so I came back to the farm to trade off with them. I had wanted to spend more time walking around Perth and enjoying the nice sunny quiet day but that will have to wait until next time. Had too much to do to get settled this time around. Don't worry I will post some cute little pictures from around here once I get to them. Spent the whole evening re arranging my apartment, cleaning dishes and putting things where I want them to be.
Ahhhh for the first time I feel happy in my space. It's not done yet as I still havent finished all the cubbords or made it to my bedroom but it's a work in progress.
Now it's late so I'm going to take Diva out for the last time before I turn in. Sleep well everyone. Hug everyone who's close to you as you never realize how much you miss them until your miles away. I love you family! Sweet dreams.

Monday, May 4, 2009

One day at a time

Well I'm in a slightly better mood today. It's hard to stay grumpy when the sun is shining and you have a few minutes after work to just take it all in and breathe. Today was a Monday....which usually means quiet days as there are no riders so it's a day all about cleaning and the horses. Today 3 of the other grooms were off though so Nikki and I had to man the Student and Clinic barn ourselves.....which is 21 horses. As well as I was doing the 11 outside horses....craziness.
The farrier came today to do the foals outside. I was so pleased my work this week has paid off as they all stood and were pretty quiet. He told me a story of how when Silver was just a baby getting his feet done he drug 3 people down the whole length of the barn and into a stall full of stuff. So I was happy to see him stand like a champ in a big field with his 3 buddies around. This past week I have worked with them everyday putting hatlers on, picking up feet and grooming them. Giving myself a pat on the back for that one :)
But because I had to tend to that poor Nikki was stuck in the barn doing a ton of chores! 4 people to run all 3 barns today was not a fun task but we managed.
Got every bucket in the place cleaned and scrubbed, stalls look beautiful and the horses got put on the walker, turned out and groomed. Not a bad day at all.
I finally decided to take the time to get my apartment organised. I called Bell and ordered a home phone and satellite tv service....now tomorrow I have to go buy a phone and Tv hahaha. I hope I can sell it before I return to BC as that is something I do not want to pack and ship! I'm hoping then it'll start to feel more like home....yep I'm putting roots down in Ontario, thats a scary thought. Got my dog, (and soon to be) Tv and Phone....what more could a girl want :)
A massage....yep I could REALLY go for a massage. I have a strong pain between my shoulder blades and I wish I knew what was causing it. Everytime I do go to the doctor for an "ailment" they just tell me I'm working too hard and if I keep pushing it it will keep hurting. Well.....sorry....I'm a farm girl. I'm not about to slow down anytime soon. I am getting older (I know I know your rolling all your eyes at me because I'm ONLY 24) but I am already feeling it. Horseback riding and training young horses really has its bumps and scrapes. I have tendonitis in both wrists which the doc said could turn to arthritis in the one I broke when I got bucked off two summers ago, a back that gets tight and gives me migranes and all kinds of other weird things. STIFFNESS.....since when do I get stiff when I sit down haha. Ok I'll stop with the I'm so old and I hurt talk hehehehe. I can just picture my dad saying "better take care of yourself over there" "be careful" don't worry dad....I'll do my best :)
Thank god I have a day off tomorrow! This is one day off I feel like I have earned! Yes I just had a week to go home but that was by no means restful in any way, shape or form.....that was just work outside of work. Am I ever going to know when to stop? Don't think so....I get that from my Mother. She's supposed to be retired but I think I see her less now that she's "not working" then when she was haha. She always has some fantastic idea she's planning to work on next. You go mom! I miss you....
WOW time has flown by again....why does work usually go slow and then free time at night goes WAY too fast *sigh* It's time to go back to the barn for night check to tuck the ponies in for the night.
I'll get back to writing details soon for those enquiring minds. What kind of things do you want to know?
Talk soon.....TTFN

Sunday, May 3, 2009

I'm in a hurry to get things done

I'm so tired.....that about sums up the majority of what I feel like when I get home from work. Some of these girls are so gung ho to get out and go to town after work. Not me. I feel like I want to just be a hermit and snuggle up on the couch with my dog and fall asleep. After 10 or more hours a day of complete chaos and no breaks I really don't want to be around people. Is that normal? My head buzzes and everything hurts so laying still in total silence feels sooooo nice.
I feel like since I started this process 3 months ago I was so happy and so ready to get up and go. I don't know if it's just because I'm exhausted right now or what but I just don't want to be that happy at the moment. I have my days like everyone of course but this week has been wearing on me. I mean I still have my posotive outlook of where I am and the people, places, horses I'm being given acess to however.....I am on a very particular journey. I am here to learn. I didn't set out to just be a professional show groom.....I did that 6 years ago. I don't just want to train young horses.....I already know I can do that.....I want to learn and be a part of new techniques and ideas. I have a hunger inside of me to better myself and won't be satisfied until I can achieve that.
I have taken a step up since we've been home and I know as we go along things will continue to rise, I just question if it's in the right direction for me. I need to sit down and talk to Amy again. I just had a good talk with my mom and (again with the lessons I'm learning) here comes the "stand up for what you want and believe in" one again.
Ok going to stop myself there......I could rant on and on I'm sure.
More about the actual details of my day......
Started at 7 as usual....fed the clinic barn and headed out to feed the outside horses. The foals are sure growing on me. I work with them everyday putting the halter on, picking up feet and grooming them. Cute little suckers. Headed over to the girls and boys fields and fed them and checked waters. Drove back to the clinic barn to get the stalls done and horses turned out. The barn was a zoo today with lessons again so amounst the wheelbarrows and flying sawdust were riders and their horses trying to make their way to the arena. We are in full swing getting ready for the next show which is Palgrave. Well actually I think a few of them are leaving on Monday to go to Bolton but thats just a one or two day thing. Next week they all leave for a week for the Palgrave show....then they come home for a week and are off to Spruce!
I have been learning everything I'll need to know around here for when they are gone....maybe that's why my head is buzzing. It's just a little overwhelming at the moment.....which I knew it would be.
Does anyone know Simply SM? He's a huge dark bay that was standing at stud at Spruce Meadows back in 2003 when I worked there. Anyway he's one of my horses I'm grooming now.....I just love how small this world is sometimes. I have 4 fantastic horses in my barn.....Simply, Eurostar, No Mercy and Monte.
Got to learn more about the outside fencing today so I spent some time fixing ods and sods out there. Cleaned mountains of tack....leaving out tons of things but as I type my wrists are really starting to burn. My tendonitis has really flared up since we've been home from Florida. Maybe I should go dig out some more of the Tendonil cream and put it on myself.....maybe it'll feel better. I could wrap them like I do for the horses lol.
I have completly gone off track and so I think I'll leave you with that. I think everyone reading should sign up so you can reply to me. Not one reply in the last 3 or 4 letters.....haha just bugging you. But I do really really like to hear from you. I've been very lonely since I came back to Ontario with no TV and still no phone (I'm working on it) but in the meantime all I have is you....feeling guilty yet? Is it working? WRITE TO ME :) Miss you!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Start of a new routine.

Things are slowy starting to settle back at Millarbrooke. My routine changed again....I'm getting very used to this haha.
Since I've been here I've been working in the student barn, except the odd day we'd switch it up and I'd be in the main barn. Now I am over in the clinic barn. It's really nice as it has all been reno'd. So I'm in charge of 4 horses in there as well as the outside horses.
My day goes like this....hay and grain the clinic barn, mix feed, load RTV and head out to the fields. Feed the 3 three year old mares, check electric fences, drive to next field and feed the 4 foals (weanlings and yearlings) and check fences, drive to the next field and feed the 3 old geldings, and lightening who's only 4 and check their fences. Each day I check their hay huts and get Willy to help me add more when needed. The fields get round bales so free choice hay.
If waters need filling then I take the other RTV out to fill them all. It's a great tool to have these RTV's !
Back to the barn to get stalls mucked out and horses groomed. I have two riders in there so I get their horses ready as they need them.
When I have time I head out to work with the foals. They haven't had much handling and the farrier comes Monday so I've been haltering them, brushing them, picking up their feet. They are getting better but its quite the task to work with one while 3 other curious ponies are taking the brushes out of my back pocket, tasting my hair or playing with each other and pushing them away. HAHA makes it more interesting I suppose. I really like the foals.
Amy and Jonathan have been working with the young ones that are under saddle. Then we are going to form a plan for who I'll be working and what my schedule will be when they leave for the horse show next week I believe. I can't WAIT to ride. I'm really excited about having my own string of horses to work each day. Anytime they work the young ones I`m suppose to watch if I have time so see what it is they are working on and to get to know them a little more. Mister is still my favorite :) Annie is a close second.
It certainly is more lively with all the students here everyday though. From 9 am until about 3 this place turns into a busy busy place. Almost resembles a horse show. Students come and ride their horses as well as watch other lessons and it's a whole group event. Alot of hard work and dedication goes in it each day.
Feed hay at 11:30 and sweep, clean tack, pick stalls, fill wateres, keep the rest of the barn clean. Horses get turned out and put on the walker.
Anytime I have a slow time I go help out the clinic barn but today I had enough things to keep me really busy.
In the afternoon all the horses get groomed and put away. Feed hay at 3:30 and sweep, head to the outsides fields and feed them, check fences. Wash buckets and mix feed for the next day. Feed grain to the barns and wash buckets.....I think that about sums it up. Today we did course build in the arena as it rained SO hard last night and the jumping field was really wet and there`s lessons going on tomorrow.
The schedule went up today and my next day off is wednesday. Maybe I`ll get to finally organise my apartment so I can feel settled haha. I was only here for a week after Florida, then I packed up and went home for the week now I need to unpack and feel like I live here.
Sleepy time again....goodnight.